Holeplay

Dan Schapiro’s HOLEPLAY is a display case of colorful, florid, feverish pain, coming to us in reds and blues of regret, betrayal, deceit, pitiless humiliation, and boyfriend problems, all delivered with a lush and elegant pop sensibility.

The range entailed by all the phrases and pictures covers so many various feelings, calls us to fight for so many buried activisms, and makes it possible to experience so many "melismatic insomnias" that, apparently, we were already living through.

Historical and sexual metaphors galore, a digression on an Arabic root, misshapen words and lines, ghostly pictures of phones and roads; the vertiginous and the right-here-in-front-of-you, the righteously expansive and the claustrophobic-comedic edge, the musical references and the real-life-story autopoiesis:

"the work is cold::the cold in turn works ... just go, take my breath away." It makes you cry, it is elegiac, but extravagantly so.  - Zamaan Hashmi

from Holeplay

   (March 27)

 

   I have not eaten so drinking is the most efficient       route to terror

   Standing outside             the cock    & he is smoking a wet        cigarette.

   ohbythewayi’m    positive I could’ve fucked his silence

   I am at the cock   &    I will not be getting cock to    night      -- bouncer calls me

   babe & sends me off into the negative    night_dirty cold tired    the weather is a police

   dog i saw die once_ funny    how february choreographs    this ritual   agony despair eventual “ willful dependence ” etc.

   such that one is surprised to rise anew each day    simply like bread           Paganite          no death mists                        my foggy little head       

   It is not even March 27th and I am already worried.   I once

   Fell in love with a boy simply because of the way he would piss

In public parks.

 

 

 

 

 

                                                    The sky  is a picture of being sorry

    

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

      the sky is a picture of being

 “Sorry”                

 

 

   

 

 

 

 

 

                                                                                               I take it,                                                                                                 ill take it with                 

                                                                                               my_hole

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

   My whole being sorry

 

 

 

                  mom                  the-light.                        asks me  to close

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

   Mom,  i cannot close the light   the window  the flowers     as flowers hole in the dead  as flowers bore of our dead,

   Deep deep lossive holes.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Alt text: black and white flash image of a dirty post-it, taped backwards to a wall. Printed on the post-it is the following text: ‘Nichole Ramsey Im sorry guys but i know this is fake but i always stick to the safe side i know im weird.. If you stop reading this you’re gonna die. My name is teresa fidalgo if youdon’t post this on 20 photos I will sleep with you forever this girl ignored and 29 days later her mom died. I am real you cansearch up on google’. Scrawled over the printed text are semi-decipherable scribblings about measurements, including the words ‘Linen,’ ‘closet,’ ‘Hamper,’ ‘all floors 18.5 wide,’ ‘15.5 deep,’ etc.]

[Alt text: black and white flash image of a dirty post-it, taped backwards to a wall. Printed on the post-it is the following text: ‘Nichole Ramsey Im sorry guys but i know this is fake but i always stick to the safe side i know im weird.. If you stop reading this you’re gonna die. My name is teresa fidalgo if you don’t post this on 20 photos I will sleep with you forever this girl ignored and 29 days later her mom died. I am real you can search up on google’. Scrawled over the printed text are semi-decipherable scribblings about measurements, including the words ‘Linen,’ ‘closet,’ ‘Hamper,’ ‘all floors 18.5 wide,’ ‘15.5 deep,’ etc.]

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Hello. I am Ms. Walker with the health department and I need to reach you regarding a confidential matter, please call me at [redacted].  

> Hello, I just tried calling

I was calling out. I will call you now

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Thank you. Which one is your profile image/logo?

> IMG_8597 Ok, thank you. IMG_8601

What is the profile name of this person with the sunglasses and hat on?

> He doesn't have one, he’s DL

Ok. Thank you.

> Also my ex’s number is [redacted].  

I need the date of birth and other details, just like the same questions that I asked you earlier.

>[redacted]  he’s Latino, idk DOB but 21, lives in the city, 5’6ish

First and last time that you had a sexual encounter etc

> i think first was august 2018 last was december 2018

Where does he live, did you use condoms? Do you remember all of the questions that I asked you? Please be specific in your response if you can

> We didn’t use condoms but I think he was tested afterward and was negative, I topped him, he probably lives in Brooklyn now

He speaks English,

> He speaks English and no DV concerns

Any facial hair, etc

> I’m not sure anymore, he couldve shaved

Good morning Daniel. This is Mrs. Walker, we spoke yesterday. The person who goes between the two names (Korean guy), what borough does he live in and where did the encounter take place?

> the encounter was at their apartment in brooklyn

Does he speak english?

> they do yes

Ok and the other people were met on the site called grinder, correct?

> Yes

Ok, just wanted to clarify. Thank you for your cooperation .